may1st2002

Your eyes always told me more than those three words could say. And with that first kiss I could feel that which leads all hearts astray. Met with unbridled passion that stands cuts above. Until the day you reunited with your only real love. Your eyes always told me there would never be enough. Through the fever dreams it brought you I felt the coldest touch. Upon your lips each night, I'd find an empty promise of change. And with each calloused embrace the sweetest words uttered with disdain.

Try to imagine a better life, one where I can sleep and I can dream. All through the night I toss and turn. Can't stand to close my eyes. And when I can see the light I think that I'll be fine. You're the only one I ever see in my dreams So I'm begging and I'm pleading Won't you please, please, please let me sleep. Sometimes this place can make me feel so empty, but still I stay. And lately it seems like the walls are closing in I'm not okay, I'm not alive, I'm not insane.

I lept from my bed to find you with your regrets. And, oh, what a shame, that you said, "it's such a shame." I hide from the sun, but you're already out the door. Oh, what a sin, I said, "it's such a sin." You make us a place to hide. I make us a place to fight. We both break us way too hard, but we don't care much about that. We fail to commit. We're feeling uncertain. I need to feel you on my lips. I put the barrel to my lips. And Everything will be alright

My soul is laid to rest upon a bed of nails, and it can never lie motionless. Examine, Examine, Reexamine Toss and Turn. Gouge and impair. Seven hundred eighty-two wounds at your expense. My heart is laid to rest upon a river bed, where it waits for the chance to surface. Confined beneath earth and stones Forsaken, Isolated, Hopeless. Seven hundred eighty-two attempts to take a breath. My body is laid to rest upon a bed of roses, but I never fall asleep with ease. Wake in a sweat, wake up alone. Sacrifice, Recover, Anticipate. Seven hundred eighty-two thorns invade my flesh.

I forget to speak when I know what to say. It's a simple reaction to the chemicals consumed. Vague lines fused with implications will tell you what you need to know. I forget to inhale when singing your song. If my face should turn blue, just try not to worry, It is not my intention to cause any fuss. It's a common event, though out of the ordinary. I forget to let go with my arms around you. I never desired to squeeze you too hard. Pulling you  too close never entered my mind, I never considered it a possibility. I forget to be joyous. I forget to be rested. I forget to be sentient. I forget to be nourished. I forget how to l

Do you ever miss me when everything starts to go wrong? Am I supposed to disappear each time you roll your eyes? Do you say the words under your breath, do you whisper between sighs? How am I expected to know what the problem really is? And the music fades away as you are exiting without saying a word. But for you, it sounds better now that you're in another room. Revocation's the word of the year but I'm sure you're aware of that. Let me break this down into words you'll begin to comprehend. We can play this over and over but it always ends the same; with you and me unhappy. And I should've known from the taste of your ki

I was sitting in my room and I said to myself, "Self, we need a job. The elephant is bankrupt." So we walked around town No jobs to be found We were distracted by the sound When a bird hit the ground "I've given up," he said, "and I'm surely no good. A bird that can't fly is no friend in this 'hood." I said "who cares? No need for a fit. Find a nice windshield to carry your shit." So, he pooped over here, and he pooped over there, next to the man with detachable hair. He pooped on the sidewalk, he pooped on the grass. He pooped and he pooped, then he tore up his ass. We went to the funeral, sat next to the fern She said, "wha